I haven’t had butterflies in my stomach since I was 18 and started dating my ex. Everyone waits and long for that feeling, that feeling of being in love. I don’t think I’m in love though, not yet. I’ve only just started dating this guy, we’ve met twice but since Friday my tummy flutters every time I think about him.
It is a wonderful feeling and an agony.
How can I keep myself sane? I’m a woman and women are famous for being over analytic. I can’t help but wonder what he thinks of me. Was I his for just that night or will we keep dating and see where it leads? I’d like to see him again. Can someone please turn off my head? At least the small cluster of neurons in my brain who are responsible for the hopelessly over analytic part. Where is that off-switch?
The timing is yet again terrible. We live in different cities and next week I’m going away traveling for 3 months! But as one of my closest friends told me:
If it’s meant to be, he will still be there when you come back.
So I’ll enjoy every day of my coming journey and I will keep this feeling in my heart and I’m going to wait and see what the universe has in store for me. No one knows what the future brings. So why keep agonizing over it?